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Saturday, March 22, 2008,3:32 PM
just came back from dhsco 公演.seeing 郑老师,the 排位 etc. overwhelmed by a feeling... its still that traditional co without frills n costumes.just a quality perfomance with students donning their smart navy blue blazers that are seemingly bursting at the seams with sincerity.some things never change.
its been 2 years since i've graduated from dhs n since i didnt make it a point to go back n help 分 the jnrs, most songs were unfamiliar to me. so i was really looking forward to the alumni piece 花木兰, since its the v first song i learnt when i stepped into 大 组. vivace part of hua mu lan made me cry, not cos im so touched by the music that i actually saw mu lan standing thr in her shiny armor n helmet(though that should be the ideal effect) but cos cliche as it may sound, beautiful memories came back in torrents.
郑老师 and his indescribable unique way of conducting, 郭老师 n how i got my nickname jimmy, 上 音 with 王妈妈 3/4 of time touching my eyebrows or whacking my wrists, n always smiling 丁老师. pracs with chinyong's batch, khaiqi's and finally peijean's. the 大 组s and rusty 谱架s that kept collapsing. tiring 排位and 弦乐组 revolution, 集训 and 康乐 , whr they always order chicken rice, malaysia trip, my roomie pek,奶妈奶爸 john and pk. not forgetting syf whr 中胡 left everyone in cold sweat even up till rehearsal, and the gold with honours at the end of the day. of cos thr's 公演 with lazing ard on backstage sofa,搬乐器, 调音. 2006 齐奏赛马, was really a dynamic piece.
and many other fragments that came back to me while listening to that 保留曲.
to my 3 zhonghu jnrs felicia,ivan,and clarence, i can only say im really sorry for being MIA during 2007 syf year. initially it was the excitement of entering a jc, then SCIP and planning first-intakers party kinda kept me busy, i felt i wouldnt be able to make a difference even if i went bac to help, seeing as how i failed theory and didnt play well.then came the operation that left me afraid to face anyone except for those that i inevitably had to meet. by the time i got my brace and was back to rugby, i had so much more catching up to do with the sch work that i had forsaken as well as working towards the stamina that the rest of my teamies had.once again 2008 siyuan asked if i was interested in performing. i said yes but in the end i agreed with irene that i've long since lost touch in erhu, so i shouldnt be thr to affect the orchestra music.
but i really do miss dhsco alot,everyone of u. even the housefly.
if by a miracle, i could turn time back, i would have practised much harder for kao ji and all. i was a v disappointing music student though i often bluffed myself into thinking its just nil inclination towards music. also i would choose to have handled that relationship in a much more matured way and hopefully not hurt anyone. i wish i had told u how i always felt about u too. so many regrets n no chances to redeem myself. now that i've straightened out my thoughts compared to sec sch co days, i shouldnt let anything stop me from giving my best in doing things im passionate abt and making the right decisions.
kinda braindead from all the flooding thoughts tonight.shall end off this post.
Junmin